Life is not easy to live.The pain of hanging on is sometimes more severe than hanging in there.
I have heard enough stories of people losing their spouses at home.Sometimes expected though at other times suddenly in their sleep in their own bed just next to them.People live with a scar of unfulfilled love when that happen,sudden death,no warning ,no sign.
He was dying in hospital with cancer,a progressive,erosive tumor causing pain and suffering.His wife was there all the time,as were we.He was asked to have any thing and every thing what ever he would liked.He asked for a beer and his wife got it.I remember that afternoon,he had a beer,we browsed through his photo-album of world wide cruises,pictures of waves,wind,rain and shine.
He looked at me with a smile,rather strangely and said,I am glad I met you at this time.I can't thank you enough.
I felt tears in our eyes,no words,no voice heard though our silence said it all.He was dying,he knew that.
To some experiencing death with a dying spouse is as devastating as to others a death without goodbye,sudden unplanned.
How it happen,why it happen remain beyond mind and reason,though a desire of "wish you were here" stays on with those left behind.