She was suffering from emphysema that had gone from bad to worse.Smoking cigarette was her thing,no quiting as we talked.
Her lungs were failing to exhale carbon dioxide which lead her to hospitalized.
As she started to get better and ready to be discharged,the importance of smoking cessation was reiterated.I saw a smile on her face,one of those when you think to have a winning argument,and she said,I may still get sick even if I don't smoke because of emphysema.The answer was yes.
She looked triumphed.
Then I smiled,it was a sober moment as I told her,"you will be the only person then to feel bad about yourself lying in a hospital bed telling yourself if I only had not smoked I may have better chances".
There was no wining as she looked sad.I hoped a message sink in before it get too late.
In life there are no guarantees as we have sayings like bad things happen to good people.The one thing make good people good is they have done the right thing when they are required.When bad things happen at least they are not to blame themselves.they don't have to fight if I only thoughts.
In grand scheme of things that is the strongest ally one can have.That is not to fight against oneself.