"a castle of love"

Hey !
Stop whining,and start building,
This is the left over of a promised love,
How long we are going to whine, lets shine as the dawn breaks a new day.

Stop fantasizing !
There is no Cinderella,no Prince Charming,no Santa out there.
Just you and me are here,
Lets stop whining and start building, a castle of love.

"do more"

Their demand to 'do more', just put smile on my face.
I wonder will we ever learn to put down our foot and say, "it’s your turn".

I wonder will we ever stand up to our own national interests.
I wonder will we ever start behaving like a power.
I wonder will we ever stop doing what we are doing now.

"man to man"

Man in power hiding behind their bullet proof lives.
Men on street exposed to bullets and bombs.

Man in power stressed with greed of power.
Men on street stressed with power of greed.

I wonder how our elite are so shameless in their lives,
I wonder how our citizen are so shameless in their lives.

I wonder when truth will speak like man to man ;
”You get your rulers from your own herd”.

Just look around; "alas! citizen and elite are of same breed ".

"collateral damage"

A heart bleed for those who died in the name of collateral damage.

People are dying of unnatural causes over here.
People are killing people in the name of their hate.

A heart bleed for those who died as a collateral damage.

People are looking at their dead, numb with tears of blood asking;
Can someone has any conscience out there?

"kala kola leaders"

I saw pictures of you and you and you:
Mr.President,
Mr.Prime Minister,
Mr.Chief Minister,
Mr.Leader from London,
Mr.Opposition Leader,
And now The UAE Chief's pictures……………………………….!

What is going on?
Just one thought for them:”grow up,stop acting like teens” .
“Your people need your wisdom and actions”.
“No more jets or jet black haired faces leading us”.
"I wish,may your inside is not as dyed as your hair".

"yaay"

Yaay,today I am one year older than last October 13th.

I want to age with grace !
I want to celebrate my aging !

And yes I did !!

So my dear,
Yes,I had desires of conquest,glory and victory once upon a time,
Until one day,I saw myself in the mirror facing myself.
That day,I saw myself getting conquered by the passing by time.

Yes,I know:
a look in the mirror,
a need for having reading glasses,
a shade of snow in head,
a graduation certificate date
a news of a colleagues's death !

Those are the reminders:
"sub thath para rah jaway ga,jub laad chalay ga bunjara".

And the life goes on to a life hereafter !!

" beyond"

"You gave words to my belief",she said.
"You gave wind to my wings", he said.

Then there was a moment of silence: no words,no winds.
But it meant a whole lot beyond words,what their eyes were saying !!

"nobel piece prize"

I heard the News !!
But I want my piece of prize !!

I wish some day we will get a Nobel Prize.
But for now I would like to share my thoughts about getting a Nobel prize for my country.

I think people of Pakistan should be nominated at least for a piece of Nobel prize in some category, say in "human sufferings".

The criteria can be very stringent but we are Pakistanis,a wounded country with stabs from its own,we can easily compete with others !!

No electricity,still same electric bills,who cares.
No safe water,who cares,
No sugar,who cares.
No safety,who cares.
No business,who cares
No law,who cares
No justice,who cares
No leader,only jugglers,jokers and thieves,who cares.
No parliament,yes a dummy parliament who cares.
No jobs for well deserved educated people,who cares.
No respect to countrymen,can be for sale to other nations,who cares.

Yes we have Edhi and like souls,but who cares (certainly not the nobles).

Our people are still living and keep on living against so many odds.
Our people are carrying the burden of the rest of the world.

My fellow countrymen you deserve a piece of Nobel Prize!
I wish you the best,I love you no matter what,with or without a Prize !!

"once upon a time"

Once upon a time,
This is the story of what is made in heaven.

Though it felt like a new beginning,
But our love was there since the beginning.

Though all stories start like this, as once upon a time.
Our story is the beginning of love for eternity starting right now !

"perfect,imperfect"

Ages ago, I tried to hold on to her,
But my past came in between two of us !

And we moved on to have a perfect life.

I wonder, am I the only one still wondering in an imperfect world !

"karma"

Ramadan,the month of blessings is here and I wonder why ?
Things don’t change with my people,and my land............ !

I don't wonder anymore !

People of my land make news with making artificial shortages.
They lie,cheat,hoard,deceive.
They cannot follow traffic laws,they cannot respect life and liberty.

I wonder why people from my land wonder;
Don’t wonder,it is simple;

Beside their leaders,
People themselves are low in character,faith and discipline.
They are victim of their own deeds: Karma.

"a long distance affair"

On my iphone, I saw uTube videos;
The videos of the town, streets, people of the city; I left behind.
Yes,things have been changed.

Ages old images,which froze in my mind then,are not there any more.
No more delicate eastern romance.
No more faith,unity,discipline.
No more institutions.
No more people to proud of,
No more principles to die for.

Yes,I love to live in those frozen past images as realities........
Then I saw uTube videos on my iphone.
It felt like all of my memories were a cliche’ of a long distance affair.

"upfront declaration"

In the beginning,middle or end of our love lives;
There are no dead lines.
There are no ultimatums.

At first I love you,
Then I hate you,
And finally I am walking away.

First you love me,
Then you hate me,
And finally you are pulling away.

You see,we fall and fail in love together;

As love is an up front declaration, not a back ground diplomacy.

"ego"

I am, who I am,
I am a drop of water.

You are, who you are,
You are an ocean of water.

Yes,I can be lost into you.
Yes,you can be lost into me.......only if you ignore your ego !

"tulips"

I felt the distance between two of us.
It felt like oceans apart when I fall in love.

Until one day,those tulips turn into two lips.

"ring"

Two people in this fast life were in love.
Their love was without a string.
That was their commitment,
Until one day he got down on his knee with a ring !!

"out of body experience"

"Yes,I had an out of body experience once",I said in my metaphysics class.

I remember then in my college years.
I was shy,she was bold.
This was then but now it can be told.

Once upon a time:
She looked at me,I was blank.
She got closer to me,I was blank.
She spoke to me, that was my out of body experience !!

is this real or a distraction ?

Is this real or a distraction ?

Living a life with my God's abound blessings.
OMG,I am not thankful to my blessings.

My distractions make me swing from what is real.
The glory of K-2,
The civilizations of Harappa,
The silk route of Khyber Pass,
The salt mine of Khiwara.

You see,I know what is real but here comes my distractions:
Get rich overnight schemes,
Bombardment by advertisements:pretty models as cars,girls,fabrics,stuffs.
Societal pressures,peer pressures to accomplish something,
Do whatever it takes to be there.

I just need a way to keep my focus !
I need to ask :
Is this real or a distraction ?

"this one for you papa"

Today I was stuck in traffic at a cross road.
While sitting there,I saw from my car's rear view mirror;
A car with three children in school uniform sitting on back seat.
The driver was a man with a smile on his face.
But his eyes were back and forth looking at his wrist watch.

While sitting at that cross road,I remembered you papa.
Dropping us to school and getting late for your work.
You always smiled,never complained.
I remember your smiling face papa.

I am grown up now,I am not a kid now.
And it has been a long time that I said this to you.
May be I never told this to you.
I never saw it coming.
And it has been a long time that I said this to you :
"I love you papa".

As I entered Harvard's parking lot,I said.
"I am on the top of the world because of you papa".

Then in my mind this song echoed:
"You raise me high because I was on your shoulders ".

And I felt that my papa was smiling back to me !

"goodbye is temporary"

As time has travelled in moments to turn into years,
The time has finally arrived to say our vows of love with another goodbye.

Goodbye my love !
I will be waiting for you to re-vow for eternity.
You see this time our goodbye is temporary.

"what really matters to you"

"what really matters to you" a writing on the wall.
Mind wanderers,soul searchers,eye openers,
Friends, foes, humans with humane and in-humane traits:
what really matters to you ?

To me, my love for you, really matters to me.
My heart desires are wrapping around you like a rainbow.
My mind energy is unconditionally charging from your touch.
My love, you really matters to me !

"casualties of war"

I saw the movie “casualties of war".
I could not sleep for days.
I was not the victim and I did not do it.
It was horrific to watch, I ask myself what if?
I could not sleep for days.

I wonder: what if I was that ONE soldier.
What if I was that one soldier who did not do it.
What would I had done in the pursuit of saving humanity.
I know what I had done !
I can sleep now ……………………………………………………....

"an action"

Honestly,I don't practice what I preach.
I am just like most of them.

I was taught that each action cause an equal and opposite reaction.
I saw actions causing reactions and that was the beginning of "stress."
So I stopped any actions !

Then I learned that even my non-actions caused reactions in our times.
So I started all actions !

Now I know,if my actions cause actions of balance.
I can prevent giving birth to 'stress' in our times.

Yes, I need to practice;
"An action should cause an action."
"No reaction,No stress."

"it's fresh and refreshing"

I looked up at the stars studded sky and said, ’the universe is my playground’.
Being here is really amazing but what’s out there is really refreshing.
I am here with a Sun, a Moon, a Mars and a Venus.

Being here is with all those talks about Global Warming and Ozone dilemma,
I wonder is it real what they say or just a knowledge of few years.
Being here I wonder how Earth survives those billion years.

Then I wondered what if they find us before we find them in our galactic journey.
What will they say about our Earth?
I hope they say, it’s fresh and refreshing.

"never before,never again"

Our Life is a one time live show.
What ever we do, moment after moment,
No script.
No rehearsal.
No fast forward.
No recording.
No replay.
No slow motion.

Life's reward is life itself.
Live life as never before and never again.
A show within a show.................................!!

"soul of love"

I saw her slowly loosing herself.
I wanted to save but I saw loosing myself.

We had everything:looks,love and us.
But love was not enough to save those desires of selves.

When the blessing was granted upon us as being together.
We missed our blessing in the struggle to stay together.

The soul of love :"lets love each moment" was missing.
We could not"save the best for the last"............moment !

"cure brings my death"

So I saw her at the airport after a few years of my "not meant to be" end.

She was with him,the one for whom she left me.

So there were three people related to each other like strangers.
No way to avoid as our flight was the same at least at this time.
I said,hi to them and wanted to leave,
He stopped me and said,"don't leave,she had told me all about you. "
"Nice to meet you."

I said,"nice to meet you both. "

Then he said,"I am a cardiologist, still I cannot cure matter of hearts"
I said,"I am a writer and cure brings my death."

"trojan"

I see that all of us are riding on Trojan horses,
like we are being chased all of our life times.

I feel that all of us are like walking time pieces,
our time is ticking but we keep on planning pieces.

I know that all of us knowingly waiting for the unknown time,
You never know,when our time pieces will stop ticking.

I wish,we may enjoy life's scenic views in slow motion while still we have some time.
I wish,we may learn that there is no fight worth to win or lose,if the loss is a life time.

Lets develop our best time management skills.
Lets learn to let go of that Trojan horse once for a life time..

"grey shadow,no house"

When I do good, good will come back.
When I do bad, bad will come back.

They say,"what goes around comes around".

You see,
When you paint your house in black, it will be black.
When you paint your house in white, it will be white.

No wonder,
Since I painted my house with a black and white mix,
It came out as a grey shadow, no house !!

"happy wedding anniversary"

Darling, it has been seven years ago.........today:
When we said, "You are the wind in my wings".

It feels like yesterday when our lips sealed love for the first time.

A dance of love never stops,
A song of love never fades,
A time in love never flies.

Today is the day when we felt the meaning of " love is in the air".

Lets celebrate today :
"May I have the first dance again".

"Happy Wedding Anniversary My Love"

"hey you"

"Hey you, my center of attraction I loved you all of my life."

I told you this day in and day out as I saw,
Time was leaving it’s footsteps at your door steps.

As time march’s forward conquering the castle of soul,
I am trying to make sense what they are telling me now about you.

"do no harm"

Times over times,we are reminded,
Human beings are we all, "do no harm."

Thousand paths of enlightenment are there,
I wonder why those paths don't cross .

The sky,the moon,the sun,the ocean,all are screaming:
Look we are the witnesses, hey humans "do no harm".

"genetic testing"

They tell me stories of our forefathers:
They were wise.
They were just.
They were brave.
And they were humans.

When the rest of the world is in fast forward mode,
People of our land are in fast backward mode.
When the people of the world are talking about human values,
People of our land are out of values.
No law,No order,No peace,No pursuit of justice.
I wonder isn't something wrong when all that is in our DNA.
:
"Let's do a Genetic Testing to test who were our forefathers !"

"good news"

Journalism is not my gig !

I have a different profession so I wonder why?
When I turn on television,cable,radio,satellite radio.
When I talk to a person,friend,family or you.
There is a news............something is happening !
There is a Breaking News.
There is a Live Coverage.
Why a problem is always a news?
Why a solution is not always a news?
I wish someday,No News will be a Good News.
In our times for now, only 'a problem' is a News.

"I am no Michael Jackson"

Some people really look very fresh, make-up or no make-up.
Some people really look not so fresh if they wear no make-up.

I don’t wear make-up, but I do wear a mask.
I am no Michael Jackson, you know I am not.

My mask is not to protect you from my cough or sneeze.
My mask is not to protect me from pollution or snooze.
My mask is the 'persona' I wear to hide behind it.

"white burn"

People got black by white (phosphorus) burn first there, now there.
We read in newspapers this news first from there, now from there.

I wonder by burning humans,what is going on first there.now there.
I wonder why people burn people if they are different from their humans.
I wonder as if this is a war between who act more un-human !!

"skeleton in the closet"

I always respected skeletons, they made me what I am now.
But some of that closeness remains part of me as of now.

I knew that then but not like this when she told me:
“You first bury the skeleton in your closet before I can move in your heart.”

"two angels"

They said, “be careful,you are under surveillance day and night.”
I said, “it’s not a news for me.”
“Yes,I am always under surveillance day and night.”

They said,”watch your steps,you are being watched day and night.”
I said, “it’s not a news for me.”
“Yes,I am always being watched day and night.”

"The only thing we forgot the two angels who are constantly writing our deeds."
I said,”surveillance is not a news for me.”

"one day sale"

I love sale:
Buy one get one free.
Half price off.
Seventy percent off.

I love sale,I wait for a sale.
Most of us do wait for a sale.

I wonder if someday, there would be a sale of goodness rather than goods.
What would I be buying then?
What would you be buying then?

I wonder if this world and its people are also looking for a sale;
Where merchants of war,hunger,might,money would sell:
Goodness,Humanity,Justice,Peace.
Buy one get one free.

I wonder are we waiting for a sale ?

But remember priceless goods can never be on sale.
Those may be fake !

"this one for you mama"

Simple,caring,loving,beautiful.
This is my mom.

Mama,you were the first girl I fall in love.
Remember,once I told papa "he is a lucky guy".!
I love you mama.

I remember my days when I was under your wings.
I was protected,groomed,nourished:Yet I complained !

Remember when I used to avoid going to school with you.
Because "you were very pretty and others boys and girls were calling you as my girl friend".
I hated that then but now I miss those times.

If I have power to capture time and bring it back,
I will love to go back to school with you mama.

This time I will treasure each step walking and holding your hands.
This time I won't let it pass by a day when I will not go to school,
This time I will tell everyone that she is my girl !

"colors of love"

They say,when you live together you see the true colors of each other.
I am seeing her true colors,as she does mine.
Let me give you an example from this story of mine.

I was leaving in rush to work,
She said,"honey,this is the list of things and please pick up the grocery on your way back".
I said,"ok,babe" and we kissed bye.

On my way back from work,
I am in the grocery store,I have a list in my hand:
Estee lauder( light earth shade)
Coach (is this is the newest?)
Victoria Secret(yes,this one for you)
Alfani (as before)

I said to myself,"things have been changed,I love my new grocery list".
And while driving towards the mall I made a wish:
"May our bright colors of love won't fade with repeated laundries of time".

"love compass"

I put my ear on the floor to listen!
I can hear your steps walking in my direction.
I put my ear on your chest to listen!
I can hear your heart beating in my direction.
I put my ear on the phone to listen.
I can hear your voice whispering in my direction
I put my ear on your mouth to listen!
I can hear your breath blowing in my direction.

I see a 'love compass' pointing in my direction !

"I know"

When I tell you something you always say,"I know".

When I tell you,"stop smoking,it is no good".
You say,"I know".

When I tell you,"stop being angry,it is no good".
You say,"I know".

When I tell you,"stop ignoring me,it is no good".
You say,"I know" .

You know that all we know is already known that's I know.
I hope,you may know that just knowing is not enough to know.

Let me say that " I know" is your way of saying,
"Sorry,thank you,I know I will not do that even it is good ".

Let me say that,
"He who knows what will he do beyond saying "I know" really knows".

"ecosystem"

I wonder is this is how the path of life is made of :
Good,Bad,Very Bad,Very Good.

I wonder is this is what the balance of life is made of :
Thought,Word,Action,Reaction.

I wonder is this is how the ecosystem of life is made of :
What we do,what we say is going to balance out in the end.

I guess !

"a cat and a mouse"

The old story of a' cat and a mouse' has taught all of us a lot.
The old story of a 'cat and a lion' has taught all of us a lot.

I always thought of a cat as a teacher.
I always thought I did not learn anything from the mouse.

Until I knew that in today's world I am learning everything from the mouse.
Now I know my real teacher is a mouse !

"cup cakes"

We all know all the keywords:
Life,Humanity,Freedom,Justice.
Peace,Respect,Truth,Practice.

We all ignore all the keywords:
Life,Humanity,Freedom,Justice.
Peace,Respect,Truth,Practice.

We all forgot the power of words as keys in our life vaults.
And guess what,we all became cup cakes in our cup boards.

"SPF 15"

The other day we went to a beach,
I saw her putting sun screen on her skin.
Yes,summer is here,sun burn is here,SPF 15 is here.

She asked me to help her with sun screen and I did.
I want to have it too though I am not fair skinned.

She looked at me and smiled,"you too want to protect your skin".
I said,"I may not need a sun screen like you babe".
"But we all need a screen from war-burns to protect our skins".
"I know SPF 15 shields from sun-burns".
"I want to invent a shield from man-burns".

She smiled and said,"hey stop talking,lets get some love burns".
Then she ran towards ocean and I followed her !!

"walk-ins welcome"

Doctors,dentist,lawyers...................
Barbers,salons,stylists.....................
I see' walk-ins welcome' sign everywhere.
I do welcome some walk-ins here and there.
.
Though,
I do like the options:appointments,schedules,walk-ins.
I do also like the organized disorganized chaotic inns.

But I remind you as I remind myself :
"Don't welcome walk-ins in your heart".
"Just be careful who walks in your heart".

But I guess:
"Love always walk-in our heart uninvited"
"Love always walk-in to stay,and remove 'Y' of Your to Our".

"stepping forward"

I struggle to bring world peace.
I talk,I walk,I care,I dare.
I love,I work,I bare,I share.
I struggle to bring world peace.

I struggle because I lack a peace within me.
I lie,I cheat,I revenge,I astray.
I skew,I weep,I leap,I betray.
I struggle because I lack a peaceful me.

Lets have a peace within before asking for world peace:
One person at a time, stepping forward to be in peace !!

"a place named L.A."

I used to say what I want.
I used to do what I want.

Until I knew there is a place named L.A.

When my 'L'anguage and 'A'ction does not match.
Then I am a just a shallow person without a match.

Then I lack living in L.A.

I know why my countrymen are reaping the harvest of sufferings.
I guess they are getting what they have sowed over the times of blessings.
.
I wish they knew there is a place named L.A.

"my first language"

When I passed TOEFL first time I was told then,
English was my second language !

Now they say,I don't have an accent,I wonder why?
But I know English is my second language.

I wonder what was my first language while growing up.
I guess silence was my first language while growing up.

"ten drops of tears"

To my school where I spent ten years of my life.
To my school where I learnt ways of my whole life.

Growing up in my school,I always thought that was the dream world.
Then one day I went back to visit my school after ten years in the real world.

There was a barren lot with no remains of a school.
There was not even a tomb stone of remains of a school.

I miss my school,my teachers,my colleagues.
I miss the smell,the wind,the wit of my school.

I have ten drops of tears in my eyes for each of my school years.
I wish I had ten grands in my hands to save building of my school years.

"I wonder why?"

I wonder why?
When you get a cut there,I bleed here.
I wonder is this is because we are the soul mates.

I wonder why?
When you miss me there,I miss you here.
I wonder is this is because we are the news makers.

I wonder why?
When you are in love there,I am in love here.
I wonder is this is because we are the lovers.

I wonder why?
When you cry the pain there,I cry the pain here.
I wonder is this is because we are the humans.

"a thorn like a rose"

When I take a pill,side effects are a part of the pill.
I pay for the pill,side effects are a free part of the pill.

When I get a rose,thorns are a part of the rose.
I get thorns as a free part of the rose.

There is not yet a pill without side effects.
There is not yet a rose without thorn effects.

I know thorns are there just to make a rose,a rose.
I know a rose is there just to make a thorn,a thorn.

Once I knew my fingers will bleed with a rose pick,
I knew my blood on a thorn will make it like a rose.

Now when I look at a rose,It reminds me of my fingers.
I remember then my blood had made a thorn like a rose.

"uncle surgum"

I remember watching "Uncle Surgum" on television.
I loved Uncle Surgum growing up as a kid.
I know my parents and siblings all loved this puppet show.

Then I grew up.
Then I knew there is a puppeteer behind a puppet.

"History has taught us that we learn nothing from history".

Now I see a puppet show everywhere with a different name.

Now I know puppets have no say,they obey at their will.
Now I know puppets have strings attached to their will.

"ignore the ignorants"

When I said,"lets save the world".
They look around and said,"our world is safe".

When I said,"lets feed the hungry".
They look around and said,"our world is full".

When I said,"lets give time for a cause".
They look around and said,"our time is money".

When I said,"ignorance is a disease".
They look around and said,"ignore the ignorants".

"not an angel"

I tried my best,I could not save that life !!

My job is to save lives,day in and day out.
What I do make me beyond me,day in and day out.

I love being human,I have limitations,I am weak.
I love being human,my strength is in my weakness.
I love being human, my pride is in not being an angel.

"proof of love"

I said,"I love you"and she said,"prove that".

Well,
We all love to someone at some time in our lives.
We all say "I love you" to someone at some times.
Yes,words are energy bundles sending shiver to our lives.
I wonder why my words of love are not energy bundles at this time.
I wonder why she has asked,"bring down a star from the sky".
I wonder why I have to prove my love under the sky.
No wonder,I am not a Romeo or a Punno !!
I said," my proof is my unconditional love for you under this sky".
Then I asked and she answered,"Yes.............................................."

"amazing turns and returns"

Soon a curtain will be lifted for each of us.
Then watch for amazing turns and returns:
Mass will turn into Energy.
Body will return to Earth.
Soul will return to Heaven.
Abandonment will turn into hugs and kisses.
And when
Love will return to Lover!

"foot steps"

Why they are knocking on our door ?
Why they are rude even to ask to come in ?
I can hear foot steps.
I can hear my heart beat in my ears.
I know,I can hear foot steps.
I know,I can hear my heart beat in my ears.
I have only one life to live.
I have only one life to give.
I remember:"Live Free or Die"
I remember:"Unity,Discipline,Faith".

"embracing aliveness"

If a breath is equal to embracing aliveness,
Then people on mechanical ventilators are breathing life.

If a heart beat is equal to embracing aliveness,
Then people on intra aortic ballon pumps are circulating life.

I wonder,I ponder.
How come sometimes playing god is not so much fun then other times.

I asked to myself a question:
Is a breath and a beat equal to a life ?

Then I hear a cry of a newly born,wow.

A cry is the song of Birth.
A cry is the song of Death.

One sung by oneself,other sung by others.

It is when we stop crying,we lose embracing aliveness..

Now I know a cry is equal to embracing aliveness.
Life and death are just part of embracing aliveness.

"century of load shedding"

I read in newspaper,load shedding is a norm there.
I hear from friends,load shedding is not a news there.

No electricity for hours,anytime,all the time,no ifs and buts.
No electricity for hours,day and night,rain or shine,no ifs and buts.

When the whole world is announcing,this is the century of technology.
There is a place ,"our place" where technology is used to announce:
"This is the century of load shedding".

"keeping east as east"

I know the exact suffering we face with load shedding.
I hate,"Eating melted ice cream in a candle light with a noisy generator".

Yes,load shedding has killed the romance of candle light for good.
I guess,it can be classified as a cause of PTSD for good.

I wish they knew the remedy of load shedding with load sharing.
I wish they knew that solving a problem is good for a change.

I wish somehow days of load shedding be by gone.
I wish only dazzling,twinkling,bright lights from now on.

I wish someday we may tell the tales of melted ice creams to our children.
I wish someday we may have only candle light romantic dinners with our lovers.
I wish someday we may say no to noise pollution of generators.

For now,this is a wishful thinking.
For now,the curse of load shedding is here.

I guess,this is our way of keeping East as East.

"time-machine"

The moment I held her in my arms,
I felt passing by time in slow motion.
That was the moment stretched as a timeless moment.
That was the moment treasured as a priceless moment.
Then,
The moment I kissed her lips,
I felt passing by time in slow motion.
That was the moment stretched as a timeless moment.
That was the moment treasured as a priceless moment.
Then,
The moment I felt her breath,so close as was my breath,
I felt passing by time in slow motion.
That was the moment stretched as a timeless moment.
That was the moment treasured as a priceless moment.
And guess what,
I don't need a time-machine to have it again.
I just need to close my eyes to see it again.

"streets of karachi"

I remember playing cricket on the streets of Karachi.
I remember hitting a six er and a big bang of shattered glass windows.

I remember neighbours watching our games from their balconies.
I remember people moving their cars from the street before our games .

Now I know why I am so different from my peers here.
I am different because I was raised by the whole community besides my parents.

I owe to my upbringing to the streets of Karachi where neighbours raise future generations.
They provide their streets as playgrounds to grow us beyond imaginations.

I wish I would have shared this with you long before.

I miss my younger yest er years while playing cricket.
I miss my time on streets of Karachi while playing cricket.

"kite rider"

I saw a kite flying high when it was attached to its thread.
Then I saw this kite flying even higher, though detached from its thread.

Why a kite cut from its thread,initially go higher before the final decal.
Does freedom makes the kite go higher or its an illusion of freedom.

Do we human also act like(a kite) when we detach from our(thread,rider) values.
We do feel freedom,but in reality its a free fall like a kite without a rider !!

I wonder,I ponder..................................................while flying a kite.

"B-9"

I am quite a B-9 person.
I always thought about myself.

I love peace,I write song.
I work hard,I talk nice.
I smell nice,I love life.

Then,it happened as it does happen in life.

I live in this complex world.
I may not be one to add in a count.

I am a B-9 person so what?
Yes,history may not be written by a B-9 person.
But humanity can be saved by a B-9 person.

"ego mania"

She waited for him to call and say:
"I am sorry".
"I miss you".
"I want you back".

He waited for her to call and say:
"I am sorry".
"I miss you".
"I want you back".

Though they always thought to be a part.
In the end,an ego mania made them apart.

"see your newspapers"

People are dying everyday,see your newspapers.
Good guns,bad guns.
Good bombs,bad bombs.

People are dying everyday,see your newspapers.
Who made those guns.
Who made those bombs.

People are dying everyday,see your newspapers.
Not a single page can wrap a body.
Not a single page can absorb a tear.

Good guns,bad guns.
Good bombs,bad bombs.
People are dying everyday,see your news papers.

Does anyone care?

"he was angry"

Why bad thing happen to good people.
He was angry.

Why good things happen to bad people.
He was angry.

He was angry with his God.

I guess,this was his way of praying with an expectation !!

"I drink,I smoke"

Yes,I drink.
And I drink a lot.
What I drink,I leave it up to your imagination !!
But it does have a taste:
Gossip.
Gestalt.
Grief.

Yes,my will power is not yet a super power.
Yes,someday I will be a sober.

Yes,I smoke.
And I smoke a lot.
What I smoke,I leave it up to your imagination !!
But it does have a fume:
Anger.
Audacity.
Arrogance.

Yes,my will power is not yet a super power.
Yes,someday I will be a nonsmoker.

"love to blame"

I accept:
I make mistakes.
I have faults.
I do cheat.
No one knows this.

I love to blame others.
It's easy.
It's working.

We all know who we are.
We make mistakes.
We have faults.
We do cheat.

We all love to blame others.
It's easy.
It's working.

"lie detector"

I say,"history will be a lie detector too".

What I hear is not the whole truth.
What I see is not the whole truth.

The whole truth is a secret at my times.
Only those coming after me will know in their times.

Might,Money,Media:
These are the channels moulding modern minds.

Am I free to have a conscious mind?

The whole truth is a secret at my times.
Only time will tell those coming after mine.

"closeness made sight blurred"

"If I put a book very close to my eyes,I can't read".

So things happened as it does happen in LIFE.

We were so close to each other.
We were in love.
Then our closeness made our sight blurred.
We forgot our blessing of having each other.
We took our closeness for granted.
We forgot our blessing of having each other.

Then we lost each other?
Only then we remembered our blessing of having each other.
Only then our sight got vision.

Why can't we count our blessing while we have?
Why we take our blessing for granted when we have?

"autograph"

I looked at me in the mirror and said,"today I look like yesterday".
I looked at my crow's web wrinkles.
I looked at my forehead wrinkles.
I looked at my angle of mouth wrinkles.

Then I looked at my palms,and I said.
This is my heart line.
This is my head line.
This is my life line.
But,where is my time line?
It is not in my palm..........!!

Now I know,
My time lines are in my face lines:
These are the foot print of passing by time.
These are the autograph of time..................!

"La La Land"

Laying in bed on their own ends facing their opposite sides,
No one was asleep,but they made believe asleep.

Their minds were wandering in their own La La lands:
"I don't know you any more................................"

The feeling was mutual.

A storm was in the making.
A chapter was in the closing.

"journey of a lifetime"

Some species die once in a lifetime.
I die a little bit every day of my lifetime.
Some species bleed to death once in a lifetime.
I bleed a little bit every day of my lifetime.
Some species love someone once in a lifetime.
I love you a little bit more every day of my lifetime.

You see,
I die a little bit more every day.
I bleed a little bit more every day.
I love you a little bit more every day
My everyday life is some species once in a lifetime.

"No wonder,they don't understand me".
"They are not yet there in their journey of a lifetime".

" I know red color very well"

"I know red color very well",I said.
"Red is the color of rose".
"Red is the color of blood".
"Red is the color of love".

And the story goes on like this:

Red was the color of roses,
which she got on her valentine.

Red was the color of a car,
which she got on her birthday.

Red was the color of my lips,
which I got from her lips.

Red was the color of her dress,
which she got on her big day.

Red was the color of my tears,
which I got from her walking away.

"I know red color very well",I said.

"caught by a surprise"

We were not lovers,but we were full of love.
No commitments.
No strings.
No attachments.

It was just pure attraction as they say.
No ifs and buts.

We were just friends with benefits.
We kept our benefits of doubts.........
Until we were caught by a surprise !!

"echoes of my silence"

I was in shock !!
"For all those questions,only one answer".
"How come?", I asked.
Then,I broke my fast.
I screamed my lungs out.
I said everything but I heard nothing..........

As the echoes of my silence were talking back to me in silence.
I said everything but I heard nothing.

"except off course"

Finally we got back together again............!

We did catching up on missed times.

Since you have been gone,I said."I did no cheating".
Since you have been gone,she said."I did no cheating".

"Except off course toys",we revealed.

"top of the hub"

While standing there at the "Top of the Hub". I asked myself:

"Why I have to built my castle of success over these tiny peoples houses?"

"What I want to prove ?"

"Besides feeling good" !!

"light and music"

Again a wonderful thought came upon me while driving on a highway.

I had to write this song.
I was bursting with thoughts........!
So I pulled over my car to the highway shoulder.

In a few moments,
I saw a police cruiser approaching my car with flashing lights and a siren.

"What a surprise",I said.
"He was sent to add light and music".

"Sometimes creativity happen in odd places,no doubt".

"Gladiator"

Then things happened,as it does happen in LIFE.
Life brought us face to face in different context.

I said,
"I am fighting this war without my shining armor.
I won't let me lose".

Then I said,
"I am fighting this war with my shining armor.
"I won't let you lose".
"Let's fight like warriors".
"You strike first", and you did !!

As I was falling down on ground, I said.
"I lived my life in love,I died in love".
"Hold me in your arms as my last wish".
"I am a love warrior".

Then as my wish came true,I said.
"Sometimes wishes do come true rather strangely".

"oprah"

So I was invited for an interview on "Oprah".
I was thinking,what to say !
I said to myself,"I need practice,I should act just natural".

That moment a voice came upon me and I heard:
"Practice what you preach".
"You need practice".

"sand particle"

"This is not easy to admit but I admit".I said.
The crowd made a big roar of noises about to throw stones.
They were cursing,blaming,ridiculing me.

"Yes,I said it".I said again.
"I am an ungrateful,arrogant human being".
"I cannot make even a single sand particle,but I make idols".
"I worship what I make".
"Am I not a hypocrite".
I said,"This is not easy to admit but I admit".
"Yes,I said it". I said again.
"This is awareness, which makes my being a human".
"I cannot make even a single sand particle,but I make idols".
"Am I not a hypocrite".

"I will have an affair"

"Enough",I said.
While looking at ice cream boxes and chocolate bar wrappers.

I jumped out of bed in my Pj's and said to myself.
"Enough mourning,no more laying in bed on comfort diet".

Then,
I dressed up with shinning shoes and a sparkling smile.
I announced,
"I am moving on".
"I will have an affair from now on".
"I will have an affair with myself instead of an affair of heart".
"I will take care of me while moving on from a journey of joy to happiness".
"I will sail in where the winds of awareness will take me".

"Enough", I said.

"keep one,find one"

"I am no priest,I am a teacher".

To my students,I said:
"its OK to dream and desire".
"it's OK to fight and win".
"it's OK to feel and fail".
"it's OK to rise and rest".

Then I wrote the assignment for the class:
"The key to success is a true clean heart, keep one and find one".

While writing that on the black board,
I thought about my own heart,I have one,lets find one !!

"unsung hero"

Before leaving you said,
"I was not the hero to live for in love".
"I was not the hero to die for in love".

I said, though you already left,
"Let me be your hero".
"You came to me like I was your hero".
"I was there for you,why I was not your hero".

I know:
You left me, as I was not your hero.
But I stayed where you left me, as I was your hero.

"black rainbow"

Once upon a time:
Standing here, looking at your eyes.
I saw a rainbow of colors.
That was the multicolor rainbow of love in evolution.
Then I told you looking at your eyes,“ its not you, its me”.

Once the pouring of heart was over,
The abstract art of mascara mixed with tears,
Painted on your face was so obvious.
I saw a rainbow with only one color:
I remember the day when I saw a Black Rainbow.

"Q2 and QT"

Once upon a time,a Q2 falls in love with a QT.

Since I lost you,I am lost.......................
"I am wondering in this random world,
Searching for you,not for a look-alike".

"I am looking for a Q to find my way back to you ".

"marathon"

LIFE is a marathon !!!
I am in this marathon,
Running fast,faster,fastest.
Then,
He went ahead.
Then,
She went ahead.
Then,
They went ahead.

Now I realised,
It's my life,it's my marathon.
I am the winner,I am the first loser (runner's up).
I am the race,I am the racer.
I am the person,I am the crowd.

Now I realised,
LIFE is a marathon,
"Me against myself ".

"no shadow"

Now I realised that all of my life,
When I turned my back on light,
I was following a shadow.

Now I realised that all of my life,
When I walked towards the light,
A shadow was following me.

Now I realised that all of my life,
When a light was shinning over my head,
I was standing on the shadow.

Now I realized,
When I become one with the light,
Only then there is no shadow.

"secret admirer"

"You can be mine".
"I am your secret admirer,
You are out of my reach,I know".
My heart says :"You can be mine".
My mind says:"Can you be mine".

"Hello"I start talking.
"Just came to say goodbye,I am going away". Then I left.

The untold words stay with me to travel far away:
"I am your secret admirer,
"You are out of my reach,I know".
My heart says:"You can be mine".
My mind says:"Can you be mine".

Sometimes,I want to say it.
But I know, secrets are supposed to be kept secret!

"fortune cookie"

She smiled and cracked a fortune cookie.
She read,"you are in the presence of your soul mate".

I smiled looking at the fortune cookie in two halves and said,
"Over a dead body,definitely in the presence of a soul".

I remember change in her facial expression.
I remember at least the soul part of fortune cookie was right !

"this one for you efriends"

I recently read this, and I thought to share with my efriends.
So I am sharing...................

"I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches.If suffering alone taught,then all the world would be wise, since everyone suffers.To suffering must be added mourning, understanding, patience, love,openness, and willingness to remain vulnerable".
-Anne Morrow Lindbergh
(Hour of Gold,Hour of Lead)

"that's LIFE"

That's life,that's memory.....that's LIFE !!

Look............
Pretty faces.
Pretty hair.
Pretty smiles.
Pretty bodies.
Pretty people.

Keep looking.....
Wrinkled faces.
Losing hair.
Fading smiles.
Sagging boobs.
Aging bodies.

Hollywood. Bollywood. Lollywood. Wall street. Main street.

For all of us,
A celebrity or not a celebrity.
That's life,that's memory......that's LIFE !!

'past,present,future'

Traffic Lights:
Red, Yellow, Green.
Are like Past, Present, Future!

Red saying ‘stop‘: no change, no going back.
Yellow saying ‘watch’ : one chance only.
Green saying ‘go go go‘: no choice,move on with the flow.

Now I understand, why the yellow light is the shortest !

"coin a word"

When we have a problem,
We coin a word, say 'Nazi'.
Then we all hate that !!

When we have a problem,
We coin a word, say 'Terrorist'.
Then we all hate that !!

Now we have a problem,say with 'Man'.
Lets coin a word, say "Human'
So we all can love that !!

"I was not mean"

I was not mean !!
I was "just ensuring my own survival".
"Some time saying No is the ultimate self care".

She was pretty.
She was passionate.
I was good looking.
I was smart
She was on the edge
I was on the edge.
She was mourning the first loss.
I was mourning the first loss.

I was not mean !!
I was "just ensuring my own survival".
."Some time saying No is the ultimate self care."

"you became someone like out there"

I fought battles day in and day out there.
keeping those battles............. out there !!

Those were the battles of survival,remember:"survival of the fittest".
Then,I came back to my oasis in the desert of desires.
I was blamed.
I was ridiculed.
A curse was casted upon by whom:
"When you became someone like out there" !!

I thought:
I may win all battles,I am a warrior,
I am thirsty...................
If I can quiche my thirst from the oasis in the desert of desires.
I may win all battles,I am a warrior.

But there was no oasis,that was a mirage.
And I lost all battles,when you became someone like out there.

"just for a moment"

The snow fall just stopped and the sun came up in the sky.
Here I was on the ski range,
Standing in front of her face to face like a dream come true.

She looked so beautiful:
Like a white pearl,perfect curves and full lips.

I was in ecstasy !!

Then the moment of truth came upon and
I saw that snow statue melting away.
Surely some moments are true just for a moment.

"anion gap"

I was old,she was young,
And we fall in love..........!

I saw in her my younger heart,I loved so much.
She saw in me her aging grace,she loved so much.
I saw in her my beating heart,I loved her so much.
She saw in me her glowing grace,she loved me so much.

I was old,she was young.
And we fall in love..........!

Then the call came,I saw her sad.
I said,"hey you believer,lover, don't be sad".
"When I leave,I will be waiting for you at the pearly gate"
"Don't be in rush,take your time".
She smiled and said,
"It's good to know someone at a new place, I am glad it will be you"
"Our love is for eternity"
I said with a smile"And the added perk, we will stay young forever".
She smiled and said,"hey, I want my old one".

I was old,she was young,
And we fall in love..........!

"Though there was an anion gap,but our love knew no gap"

"not interested"

I was standing there at the ocean with the Full Moon up in the sky.

I saw ocean waves with a crazy dance in ecstasy.
Like those drunken waves wanted to touch the sky and kiss the moon.

I saw a lonely moon,full and glowing bright up in the sky with an attitude:
"Not interested".

I remembered Me:
My crazy dance in ecstasy,"very much interested".
I remembered You:
You as my moon with an attitude,"not interested".

"a framed butterfly"

We are young now, we will be old then.
We are in love now, we will be in love then.
Why can't we capture these moments like time in a sand bottle?
Why can't we capture these moments like time in a framed butterfly?

I am young now, I will be old then.
You are young now, you will be old then.
Why can’t we capture these moments like a baby’s first teeth smile?
Why can’t we capture these moments like an adult‘s first gray hair look?
Why can’t we capture these moments like a picture of ‘I do” ?
Why can’t we capture these moments like a picture of “honeymoon"?

I am young now, I will be old then.
You are young now, you will be old then.
Our memory won't hold our love then,
Amnesia will be taking over love then.

"Lets love now to make love then"

"house of gods"

Romance is in the air, it's the valentine......... !!
She smiled and said,
"I'm a Libra,the goddess of love,I like romance"
I looked at her and said with a smile in my eyes,
"Wow,I am a Libra too,so it means I am the god of love"
Then I put my desire in words with anticipation and I said,
"Let's built a house of gods" !!
As our eyes met,we saw gods were LOL upon us !!

"Friday The Thirteenth"

So things happened as it does happen in life so............!!

I write a letter to you every day to tell you, "how you made me feel then"
You made me feel alive,
You made me feel desirable,
You made me feel most wanted,
You made me feel complete.

I write a letter to you every day to tell you,"I miss you now"
I miss you so much,
I miss you this much,
I miss you very much,
I miss you too much.

I write a letter to you every day to tell you,"I am sorry now"
I am sorry,it didn't work out.
I am sorry,it was not meant to be.
I am sorry,you were too good for me.
I am sorry,it was not you,it was me.

I write a letter to you every day to tell you,"what went wrong then?"
I was idiot,you were smart.
I was ugly,you were pretty.
I was angry,you were cool.
I was wrong,you were right.

I write a letter to you every day to tell you,"my heart's secret desires now"
I want to hold you tight.
I want to kiss you there.
I want to make you laugh.
I want to be your hero.

Alas !
So much to tell,so much to write.
So this valentine I wrote a letter to you.
But it came back today with a stamp:
" Friday The Thirteenth:Letter Return to the Sender"

"chocolate"

I know how to say in :
Urdu: Chacalate
English: Chocolate
Spanish: Chocolate
Italian : Cioccolato
French: Chocolat
German: Schokolade.
You never know, what she may say !!
But I am ready.

I know what I want.
I should knock the door.
I should ask ,‘be mine’ !!

"I hate you so much"

Once upon a time,
I told her,"I am learning palmistry and kinda believe in it"
She got upset and said."you know,that is against my religion"
I said,"it is also against my religion"
"but I am kinda hypocrite,let me prove it you"
Then I asked her to show me her hands:
'Let's see first right hand then left"
Then I held her hands and ran my fingers on her palm.
She smiled.
Then I brought her hands close to my eyes and said:
'Your hands are very pretty".
She said,"I know"
"So I am right' I said
"Yeah,but what else"she asked.
"That's it,this is my palmistry,a chance to hold your pretty hands"
I said with a smile,"I was trying to guess your ring size".
She withdrew her hands and said,"I hate you so much".
Now I know,she was right !!!

"see you soon babe"

Finally she came in black and stood there silently.
With her starry eyes, trembling hands, silent lips,
She laid down a bouquet of flowers on the grave.
The bouquet was addressed to: “Love”
From ‘Garden of Four Desires: Past, Present ,Future and Eternity’ !!
A tear drop rolled down on her face and she said:
“I kept you waiting for me in this life”
“I will be forever yours in the after life”
“I do love you”
“I won’t be too late this time, see you soon babe”
Then she wore the ring I have given her before I left !!

"depression in my times"

I told them,"I am depressed".
I have all signs and symptoms of depression:
No emails.
No phone calls.
No text messages.
And sometimes, I send myself:
"You got a mail"email.
"Hey you" call.
"I love you"text message.
"These are the new signs of depression in my times",I said.
They agreed and wrote on my chart"severe depression with email,text,call withdrawal"
Need urgent treatment !!

"I will keep dancing"

Love is a tango dance of two.
But for now,I will dance solo:
On the beat of my heart,
On the rhythm of my breath,
On the pulse of my time,
On the steps of my soul.
Until we meet again,
I will keep dancing.

"a valentine on moon"

I do remember our first Valentine:
I said,"yes".
You said, "yes".
The first time our lips said," hello"
The first time our hands felt,"abstract"
The first time our bodies said, "hi"
The first time our minds said,"don't stop"
That was our first Valentine:
I said, "yes".
You said, "yes".
We were flying high in the garden of thousand desires.
We were diving deep in the bliss of one desire.
That was our first Valentine:
I said, "yes".
You said,"yes".

That was our first Valentine:
We named, "A Valentine on Moon" !!

"enough is enough"

"Enough is enough", I said looking at me in the mirror.
"So much talk about love",
"Fairy tales",
"Soul mates",
"Forever together".

"And then",
"Walking away",
"Breaking away",
"Falling apart".

"Heartaches,heart breaks,heart failures"

I told me looking in the mirror,"hey,I will just love you"."I mean me" !!
"Enough is enough,I'm gonna be a 'aclassic' lover" !!

"these are the symbols of my tribe"

“Yes,I am an addict”
“I refused treatment then, I refuse treatment now”
“I will keep my wounds open”,I declared.

Then I said,
“These wounds are the wounds I want to keep”.
“These are the wounds I am protecting from healing”.
“These are the wounds I am keeping as your souvenir to me”

I shouted,
“These wounds are a precious gift, inflicted as a tribal tradition of love”.
“These are the symbols of my tribe”
“I refused treatment then, I refuse treatment now.”

"nothing new out there"

There is nothing new out there in this universe of mine.
Only I am seeing this for the first time.

There is nothing new out there in this life of mine.
Only I am having this for the first time.

There is nothing new out there in this love of mine.
Only I am feeling this for the first time.

There is nothing new out there in this galaxy of mine.
Only I am travelling this for the first time.

"I am on a valentine sabbatical"

I read:"There are no coincidences".
Then, I am on a valentine sabbatical...........!!

I saw the Snow was falling,
Turning the naked trees into a bubble bath fantasy,
That view was picture perfect.
Then,
I saw the Sun shinning over those snow covered trees.
That view was picture perfect.
Then,
I saw the full Moon glowing over those snow covered trees.
That view was picture perfect.
Then,
I heard the Wind blowing over those snow covered trees.
There was a rhythm: Allah hoo, Allah (inhale) hoo(exhale)
I felt "The Breath of the Universe".
That view was picture perfect.

I read:"There are no coincidences".
Then, I am on a valentine sabbatical.............!!

"my valentine day oath"

Even when I said,"I do".
She wanted 'a proof' of my statement !!

So I raised my right hand and said:
"I was in love".
"I am in love" .
"I will be in love" .
"I will live in love".
"I will die in love" .

I declared,"I chose my own poison".

Though things happened as it does happen in life.
I do remember my valentine day oath !!

"this is in our DNA"

Once upon a time,Two Brain'ees fall in love.
One of them was me..............................!

We loved to have short and long brain storming,
I remember,the first time:
She asked me about my hobby.
I said,"thinking,thinking all the time"
She smiled,"It can't be a hobby,it sounds like a full time job"
"May be thinking through can be a hobby"
I said,"yes, going through while seeing through is a good one"
Those twinkles in our eyes made it obvious:
She was happy about our brain child.
I was happy about our brain sex.
We concluded,"this is in our DNA"

Once upon a time,Two Brain'ees fall in love.
One of them was me..............................!

"May you rest in peace in lover's paradise"

"He was mine","She was mine"

As you see now,the end of the story is the same.
Lets mourn the death of this love:
The love which was ours, as we claim.
Now lying dead in the garden of thousand desires.
We have been here before,
We will be back after tomorrow.

As you see now,the end of the story is the same.
Lets mourn the death of this love.
Make two graves:One for our lover and one for ourselves.
Each tomb stone written as:
"LOVER"
Born:when two hearts met
Died:when two hearts broke
"May you rest in peace in lover's paradise"

"a tattoo and a body piercing"

"Its time to have a tattoo and a body piercing"
She said and I agreed.

She was not so hip,I was not so hip.
But we were hip at heart,we were in love hip-hop !!

She got her nose pierced,I loved it,I loved it.
I got a tattoo with her name, she loved it,she loved it.

Her 'Toffee nosy" looked so Desi,though she said "No', she said 'No'.
My 'Tattoo there' looked like a hickey,though I said 'No', I said 'No'.

Then things happened as it does happen in life:
"I am left with a tattoo of her name on me"
"I feel like her rubber stamp for life"

"mirror,mirror"

I was caught by the mirror:
Happy,smiley,groovy,grooming.

I asked,mirror!mirror! how do I look?

I heard a thud,"move away! your breath has made me foggy"
"I can't see my own reflection"

I stepped back !

I learned, "getting too close also make things foggy"
I learned,"why our closeness did not lasted"

"I entered into your heart"

I entered into your heart,
With my heavy feet and stinky baggage:
“success,failure,jealousy,ego,lie,cheat,deceit,gray,black,white”
I drop on my knees and then I put down my head.
I reduced into tears,
Until I forgot why I was there?
I guess this is your way of loving !

"Guess what,Guess Who"

Hey you,
I am waiting for you while 'passing through nature to eternity'.
That One day you will show up in the garden of thousand desires,
With a smiley face and dreamy eyes,
And wrap your arms around me,
And whisper in my ear:Guess what !!

Hey you,
I am waiting for you while 'passing through nature to eternity'.
That One day you will show up in the garden of thousand desires,
With a smiley face and dreamy eyes,
And cover my eyes with your fingers,
And whisper in my ear:Guess who !!

"here,here,here......"

Yes,I admit.
I used to think that love is a complicated stuff.
Like, looking for a precious pearl at the bottom of an ocean.
Then things happened as it does happen in life.
Now I know,what love is:
"It's not just a butterfly kiss "
"It's not just a fairy tale"
"It's not just a two people making out"
"It's not just a pearl of desires in ashes of heartaches"

Yes,I confess.
I know now,what love is.
Love is not a complicated stuff.

This is love, when you have someone to say:
"I am here for you","It's gonna be OK","Don't be afraid",
"Hold on, jump now",'I will hold you","You won't fall",
"You are hurt,let me heal you with a kiss:here,here,here..........."

Yes,I admit.
Love is a simple stuff.

"I had a beard"

So what !!
I had a beard(rough-rugged),then I shaved (clean-cut)
Then I had a beard ,then I shaved........
They said:"Be consistent"
People,People !!

"You look like 'him' in Grey's Anatomy"
"You look like 'him' in Friends"
"You look young"
"You look old"
"You have a pimple"
"You have a dimple"
I said:"Be consistent"
People,People !!

"A Parrot named Patriot"

With my ancestors stories,
I taught them the meaning of "Patriotism":
"It's OK to question"
"It's OK to doubt"
"It's OK to dream"
"It's OK to be different"

Just remember:"Who you are"

They were my people,then they became kings and queens !

They taught me:"It's not Patriotism"
"No questions"
"No doubts"
"No dreams"
"Don't be different"

I was different then,I am different now.
So I bought a Parrot and named Patriot !!

"Coffee Cup"

So we met at the coffee shop:

She said: "so you are with a broken heart,are you never gonna love again"
I said,"yeah I am, but I will love again"
"I see my heart is like a container with a little crack"

Then I pointed at my coffee cup:
"Isn't if this coffee cup breaks,coffee will spill out"
"Just think the same way about my broken heart"
"I am spilling out what I contain,I am with a cracked heart "

She said, "so your writings are actually a coffee spill,ha"

"Living with two lovers"

I am living here now,my heart is here now.
I am living there now,my heart is there now.
It hurts me here now,it hurts me there now.

This is the pain of living with two lovers,
This is the pain of torn apart in different time zones,
This is the pain of living in two parallel worlds !!

Until,I was showed the Rhythm of life by Rumi:
"I belong to the beloved,have seen the two words as one and that one call to and know,first,last,outer,inner,only that breath breathing human being"

"Can dreams lie"

Yes,No,Yes,No !!

I am trying to find an excuse or it's real:"I lost you"

When, even my dreams don't support me now.
When, even in my dreams "I lost You"now.
When, even in my dreams:
"I cannot hold you, till tomorrow one more night"

I am trying to find an excuse:"Can dreams lie?"
Yes,No,Yes,No !!

"Paralysis by Analysis"

I told her,"I was in love before"
She told me,"she was in love before"

"This is my second love,I miss my first love"
We told,trying to be honest.

I thought,"I will never be like her first love"
She thought"she will never be like my first love"

AND

We lost what was about to happen !!
We lost the chance of 'being in love again' !!
We lost the majestic 'in love again' by the spell of the first loss.
We lost the chance of 'in love again' by:"paralysis by analysis"

"My Weird Side"

I’ve been tagged by YouTee And I'm going to "disclose" some of my weird habits now as per TAG LAW !!!

The rules for tagging :
The initial player of this “game” starts with the topic “6 weird habits/things about yourself” and people who get tagged need to write a journal about their 6 weird habits/things as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

Here it goes:

1.I come from a family where gravy is considered a beverage.
2.I like ice cream flavors like Double Chocolate-Chocolate chip (like my sisters)
3.I say"hello Good morning Sxxy" with a smile(looking at me in the mirror) every morning.
4.I still call 'eggplant slice' in different dishes:'a fish' ( since my early childhood,I know my mama wanted me to eat veggies)
5.I speak "Urdu only' in desi parties,even I answer questions asked in English.
6.I think 'long hair' gurls are prettier than 'boy-cut' gurls,and dresses like salwar qameez and sari are sexier than jeans,skirts and short shorts !!

I TAG You 6 (yes, you too)

"Frog Prince"

Once upon a time:
With her ONE KISS, I turned into A BUBBLE.
I am NO FROG.
Though her kiss turned me into A BUBBLE,
With her breath trapped inside me,
I was floating up and down,
Afraid of BUBBLE might burst !!

Then she left me but I am still A BUBBLE,
With her breath trapped inside me,
I am still floating up and down,
Afraid of bursting !

I wish,I was A FROG.
With her ONE KISS,
I would had turned into A PRINCE !!

'Marley and Me'

I heard about her Breakup !
I saw her on the News.
I saw her in the Movies.
I saw her pictures:half Naked,half Truth !

I liked her then,
I liked her now,
I am here,she is there,
I know what I want?
She is a Movie Star !

"A guest is coming"

Our breakup was not so traumatic.
She told me,"we can still be friend"
"She may visit me as a guest with her friend"

The dynamics were changed.
Our breakup was not so dramatic.
No roses,No hugs,No kisses.
No emails,No texts,No calls.

Still there was a hope,at least for me:
"She may visit me as a guest with her friend"
I heard "a guest is coming"
A crow just sat on the antenna on my roof top !!

"The perfect moment"

I said, "I will NEVER leave you"
She said,"I don't BELIEVE you"
I said,"I can swear on my lips over yours"
Then I did swear !
She said,"I do BELIEVE you"
That was the PERFECT moment !!

"K-9"

"Yes,I am renting"
I said,"pets are allowed"
"I love K-9"
"I am not scared of K-9"
"It's OK to have K-9"
"Just,NO human K-9,please !! "

"until Death do us apart"

Once upon a time,we promised:
"until Death do us apart"
Then Life did us apart !
We kept our promise,though we do apart !
Once upon a time,we promised:
"Life did us apart until Death do us A part"

"She smiled"

I said,"You are my North Star"
She smiled.
I said,"I will follow you"
She smiled.
I said,"I will never be lost again"
She smiled.
Then "dawn" came upon us !
She smiled.

"kiddish heart"

Remember when we were a kid,
I want to remember it today.
I feel kiddish,I want to grow old as a kid.
Its my new year resolution!

Remember when you were a kid.
I remember,
flying kites on the roof,
playing "Name,Place,Thing,Animal" with mama and papa,
playing ticktacktoe with brother,
going to school with sisters,
drinking Ovaltine at night,
sleeping like I sold all my horses,
chewing gum in class room,
ridding bike without permission,
looking at boys like an unwrapped devil.
looking at girls like a wrapped up gift.
Then I grew up!
and the memory hard drive lives for ever.
I will grow old as a kid at heart!
I guess keeping a kiddish heart is not much to ask for!

"I am NO Sun,I am NO Moon"

The other day I saw the Moon in bright day light.
He looked lost !
I asked: hey you, like me have you lost your moonlight too!
Then I said:hey cheers up,soon it will be your night,You will glow again!

Then,the other day I saw the Sun in the middle of night.
He looked lost !
I asked:hey you,like me have you lost your sunlight too !
Then I said:hey cheers up,soon it will be your day,You will glow again !

Then I looked at her picture:hey, you were my sunlight,you were my moonlight!
I am No Sun,I am No Moon.
I am lost without YOU!

"I'm an Expert Ex-pert"

"Life is essentially a Learning Experience with a Paradox"
I told my graduating students.

To become an Expert:In other fields of life,
You take a test,sit in an exam,appear in a board or bar.
If you PASS,you become an Expert.
No doubt,I 'm an Expert!!

I continued my lecture and said:
To become an Expert:In love or relationships,
You take a test,sit in an exam,appear in a board or bar.
If you FAIL,you become an Expert.
No doubt,I 'm an Ex-pert !!

Peace,Piece

Peace,Peace,Peace.
Whole World is looking for Peace
No One give its own piece!
Peace,Peace,Peace.
The Whole World is looking for Peace.

"No advertisement"

I said:
"I am hurt."
"It's my pain."
"I will suffer with it."
"No advertisement.No display"

I wrote in my book's preface!

"I had twins"

I said:
"I am a man of my words"
"I am a man of principle"
"I am an honest person"
I will not do it!
"I am a man of my words"
"I am a man of principle"
"I am an honest person"
Until,I had twins. Then I said: "I will do it"
I named my twins: Fear and Greed.

"ShoeTube after YouTube"

Today Sarah called me at 3 p.m. in broad day light during working hours and asked me,hey what are you doing this evening?
I said "you know,today is my cooking day for the week".
She said, I know,I know but you know I have an emergency,I need your help!
"O' sorry! yeah,what can I do for you? I offered my help.
Sarah said with a deep sigh: "Dan,I have this huge party to attend and I don't have a matching shoe and bag".
So what is the emergency? I asked her in surprise,is this is an emergency!
She said "you don't understand,for me as a girl this is an emergency and as a friend you should help me out by going with me to mall for shopping and you can't say no to me"

So I said,only if Sam join us.She agreed and we decided to meet at the mall:Sarah,Sam and me!
I called Sam and he was available as he always is"single and available"his famous line!

At the mall,Sam set the rules and said " we will not buy at the first store,we will do a survey first" I looked at Sam and I smiled at him because I knew exactly what he meant by this suggestion and I liked that too !

Sarah probably had no clue,what we guys were up to, by just so much supportive for her shopping spree!

Any way I asked Sarah"so what is all this love about shoes and bags in women".
Why women love shoes and bags so much?

She was not interested in my question at that moment as we were entering "Coach" store and Sam was busy in his business.So I end up talking to myself,which I can share.

I have seen "Brain Diagrams" with a specific "shoe and bag centers" in woman's brain like a specific center for the "thing" all man want all the time!

No culture,region and religion seems immune from shoe and bag love,where ever women exist!

As we were doing our window shopping and entering store by store: Dolce & Gabbana, Gucci, Fendi,Chanel,Prada,Coach and finally Bottega Veneta,I asked the same question to Sam, as Sarah was looking for a perfect match of shoe and bag for her dress.Sam was also not interested, he was in his good Samaritan mood, helping others in decision making with a small price of a smile!

Finally Sarah shouted with a glowing face "This is perfect! what do you think guys!
I said perfect! Sam said perfect!
She smiled back and I felt not just good but very good!
We all were happy as Sarah was very happy!

Today with this shopping trip,I think I found something really important for guys!
I think if at any time in your life you are asked by your special One that how much do you love her,you may simply say that as much as she loves her shoes and bags!
Probably this is the secret of living happily thereafter!

And now on the news is an Internet site called "Shoe tube" http://shoetube.tv/ like "You tube", where women get together and share their love for shoes!
This may also prove my point.
What do you say about women love for shoes and bags? It may be genetic!
But the real question for women is this:If you have to pick either a shoe or a bag,which one do you love more:either or probably both !

"Big nose,Too pretty"

So,
Things were not the same between you and me anymore !
Things were changing.

Things were not working out.

You were acting different.
I was acting different.

Love was out of the air!

You were looking for a reason.
I was looking for a reason.

We were mature.We were adults
No fights.No arguments.

You said:I can't,you have a big nose!
I said:I can't,you are too pretty !

"She forgot,He forgot"

She was an educated and talented artist.
He was an educated and talented artist.

She was unhappy with her life.
He was unhappy with his life.

She was complaining about her life.
He was complaining about his life.

"I feel so empty"
"I am so full of creative juices but"
"I did not accomplish anything yet"
"I did not put my mark in this world yet"

She forgot that she was a mother.She had a daughter!
He forgot that he was a father.He had a son!

"Clifton Beach"

Standing there.
I remember at the Clifton Beach:
Sunset,
Salty tasty,comfy breeze.
Walking bare feet,
Holding your sandals,
Feeling the ocean roar.
I saw waves rolling over the beach sand like....
Lover,your fingers rolling over my skin !

"Mind Your Language"

MIND YOUR LANGUAGE,always told by mama and papa,so I always watched my language.
Though I confess that I did try to say "some" words in the comfort of privacy just to have a feel, but never in public.Even then a voice came upon me:"Words are like food,you might end up eating them someday.Make them sweet"

Then I was tested,as the saying goes:"The dark night comes when we are most content"
I failed the test.I said,and I said what I was told,no to say.
MIND YOUR LANGUAGE,I forgot in that brief moment of amnesia !
I said hurtful words !
I forgot in that brief moment of amnesia !
"MIND YOUR LANGUAGE"

Sins of bodies hurt bodies but sins of tongue hurt soul.
Wounds of bodies might heal with time but wounds of soul might not heal forever.
That's why our tongue is caged by 32 sharp teeth.Like a WARNING:Be careful.

This is my daily resolution: "MIND YOUR LANGUAGE"
Can you make it yours too !

The saying goes:"Each day take down one boundary between you and the Devine"
"MIND YOUR LANGUAGE"

"It can't be Sam"

I was about to propose you !
I know you were expecting this for the longest !

I was ready,you were ready.
I was in love,you were in love.

Then it happened,as it does happen in LIFE.

Stock market crashed, so does our love !!

No bail out for 'change of heart' !

No one to blame.
No one to blame.

It was love !
It can't be Sam !

"Fantastic Two"

Looking outside the window,
I saw them always together;
Eating,Sitting in woods,
Silent,
Walking,Playing,
Going away,Coming back,Flying,
Winter,Autumn,Summer,Spring,
Rain,Shine.

Their love appeared to be for all seasons!

I am wondering:
Why our love is so different?
Why can't we be like two free birds!
Why can't we "be a reason to a season for each other's lifetime"

"Hold hands and come closer"

Let's say:
"TIME is a river,
and LIFE is a boat,
and WE are passengers cruising
from here to there or may be just no where!
Sometimes together,
Sometimes alone"!!


Let's say:
"Hold hands and come closer,
until BOAT is floating in the RIVER,
and until we meet again"!!

"I wrote your name "

I wrote YOUR name on SAND with a big 'HEART' sign
And a giant WAVE washed the sand away!

I wrote YOUR name on ICE with a' SNOWMAN' next to it
And a strong WIND blowed the ice away!

I wrote YOUR name on a TREE with a 'TWO HEARTS' overlapping sign
And a TORNADO ripped the tree away!

Then,
I wrote YOUR name on MY heart with MY blood
And I was sure, no one can take it away!

I wrote YOUR name in MY dream on YOUR lips
And I was sure,no one can take it away!

I wrote YOUR name on MY palm with YOUR imaginary fingers
And I was sure,no one can take it away!

I wrote YOUR name in MY book's preface
And I was sure,no one can take it away!

But, MY love, as I was writing YOUR name:
Why THINGS happen,as it does usually happen in LIFE!
And I am wondering now !
Am I holding on to something that was NEVER mine!
And Do I have to change the title of MY book to:
Total Eclipse of the Heart !